Today

Cheers to today, the only day I have to work with. Today I kissed each child, today I was honest with what I could do and felt defeated for all the things I wish I could do. I am content that my children ate homemade whole wheat biscuits and deer and gravy for breakfast, I am thankful I had powdered milk for times like today and yesterday and tomorrow. Today I was pleased that my children liked the soup otherwise known as "Yummy" soup loaded with tomatoes and cabbage. Today I wished I had chocolate and settled for semi failed peanut butter no bakes. Today I tried again to sell some stuff. Roll top desk, octagon coffee table, bird cage, wood stove, table, mirrors, apple basket- just drive by's. I am thankful for hand-me-down cloth diapers and the dollars saved by actually using them 5 months of baby's life thus far. Today I figured I have nothing to lose and should just right a damn book, but about what? Marriage and all it's insanity, secret desires of the nunnary, visions of Mary, my very proper rebellion? Well today will soon be a tomorrow and a tomorrow with an extra hour to think about it!